I cant believe that my weekend is already over! I find them so much more precious now that i actually have to work. Who would have thought hey.
This morning I woke up excited and ready for a different session with Aaron as this time I was taking along my twin, Julie ...
I was all pumped and prepared to do a massive weights session when he turned around to tell me we were doing a full session based on a 5kg medicine ball and body resistance intervals .... ummm what?? I hate the medicine ball I instantly groaned!
Needless to say we went about our session with a range of overhead throws .. followed by push ups (on our toes) and then more squats and throws etc .. I was completely pooped to the point I thought my arms and legs were going to give way! It sure was a great feeling to have a different kind of work out on my body, the 'shock' of no heavy weights definitely hit home on my muscles but I loved every bit of it. I always do ....after the session that is lol during it I hate it haha:)
By the end of my workout which I might add Julie did really well at too ... Aaron gave me a new revised eating plan .. Julie & I hit the shop straight away to stock up on all the requirements to see us through the week.
I absolutely LOVE grocery shopping. Most people loathe it but I really enjoy filling up my trolley with yummy fresh foods and getting excited knowing that I can prepare and of course enjoy eating all the delicious things I have packed my trolley with.
Its 10.05pm and I think I am going to continue working on cutting out pictures and images for my vision board - I actually find it quiet addictive. Its amazing what you end up cutting out without even realising it. I am beyond excited about what my finished product will look like and more so I look forward to reflecting on it every day from then on.
Vision Boards are so powerful and I cannot highly recommend them enough. Some people think they are wanky ... I just think its a better way to write up your goals and desires in life rather than writing down words in boring blue ink on white ruled piece of paper ... Visualisation people that is the key!
Brad has his first session with Aaron tomorrow ~ haha I cant stop laughing cause I know he wont be able to walk for days after hehe - love it! It will be good to be able to share this common interest also. Every now and then we may even do a few double sessions together, which is always loads of fun.
x
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
For whom the bell tolls ....
Well what can I say.. but it sure is working! Today I made a real conscious effort to not allow my phone to interrupt me whilst I was in the company of others.
Whilst I was at Per & Lou's house for Per's birthday I made sure I put my phone on silent (figured if there was an emergency they knew my sister Julie would be with me so they could easily call her if needed) ...anyhow ~ I my phone went on silent and I truly did have an amazing night!
I enjoyed the company .. good conversation ...lots of yummy food (including a few cake indulgences which I will be working off pronto come rise tomorrow with a personal training session with Aaron along with a spin class with Julie and my cousin Vanessa).
We ended up playing guitar hero - Jeez .. who would have thought it could be so fun and not to mention what a good release of pressure or tension from the past week!
Per was on guitar, Julie on the drums, Louise on Base and I belted out tunes to Metallica ... For whom the bell tolls was one of the best songs to sing!! haha
Sure enough when I checked my phone when I got home I had 2 messages and a missed call but none that were important enough to interrupt my night. All in all I am adjusting to the less phone usage or awareness in front of the company of others and I have to say I am really enjoying that!
I'm off to bed now ... so tired! Last night I slept for 11 hours, tonight wont be so long as its already 1.16am and I have to be up and ready to go by 9am.
If you bored and you don't have guitar hero try getting your favourite tunes ..pumping them up loud on the home stereo system and literally just belting out tunes as you dance - it is so uplifting and a fantastic stress reliever and leaves you feeling brilliant!!!
x
Whilst I was at Per & Lou's house for Per's birthday I made sure I put my phone on silent (figured if there was an emergency they knew my sister Julie would be with me so they could easily call her if needed) ...anyhow ~ I my phone went on silent and I truly did have an amazing night!
I enjoyed the company .. good conversation ...lots of yummy food (including a few cake indulgences which I will be working off pronto come rise tomorrow with a personal training session with Aaron along with a spin class with Julie and my cousin Vanessa).
We ended up playing guitar hero - Jeez .. who would have thought it could be so fun and not to mention what a good release of pressure or tension from the past week!
Per was on guitar, Julie on the drums, Louise on Base and I belted out tunes to Metallica ... For whom the bell tolls was one of the best songs to sing!! haha
Sure enough when I checked my phone when I got home I had 2 messages and a missed call but none that were important enough to interrupt my night. All in all I am adjusting to the less phone usage or awareness in front of the company of others and I have to say I am really enjoying that!
I'm off to bed now ... so tired! Last night I slept for 11 hours, tonight wont be so long as its already 1.16am and I have to be up and ready to go by 9am.
If you bored and you don't have guitar hero try getting your favourite tunes ..pumping them up loud on the home stereo system and literally just belting out tunes as you dance - it is so uplifting and a fantastic stress reliever and leaves you feeling brilliant!!!
x
Friday, July 10, 2009
The Now
Have you noticed how much the world has changed since we got mobile phones and facebook? It is insane!
I have come to take more note of how many of us (including myself) no longer fully appreciate the 'now' as much as we really should since technology has been taking over our lives!
Think back to the old days when there were no mobiles and internet still hadnt hit the big time market .. now imagine the times that visitors would come over, be it a family member, bestfriend, boyfriend etc ... really think back at those times and I dont know about you but I can assure you that I remember completely being wrapped up in the moment of having those people in company at the time .. nothing else mattered, nothing else distracted me .. it was all about the 'now'...
Take a look now at the persent time, Im sure you will notice that now when we are in the presence of company if our mobile phone rings we will instantly cut conversation and say hold on and get busy answering the call ... or we jump to reply to an sms ...that then leads into another 5.
Dont worry, I am just the same - however I have now noticed this lack of appreciation for the people we have in our lives in the moment of 'now' and moving forward I am going to make a concious effort that my phone or any other distractions that can actually wait do exactly that ....wait... whilst I have the company of loved ones and friends I am going to do my best to give them my full attention ~ afterall, they have made the effort to be with me face to face, the least I can do is repay that effort and time of theirs by focusing on them not my mobile!
Its funny, so many people find mobiles as a lifeline these days - I was one of them ... but not for any longer. I have actually started to use my mobile alot less over the past few weeks and especially when it comes to using it whilst Im with others and I have already noticed a HUGE difference! I appreciate and actually enjoy my 'now' time so much more!
I am just about to get ready for the gym .. I have a workout with Louise this morning which I am looking forward to.. then I have my First Aid training that will chew up most of my day .. Tonight I have Pers birthday, so I figure I will allow myself to indulge in a yummy slice of cake... I have been working out hard this week and have watched what I eat so indulgement it is!
Julie is down from Singapore and yesterday we went and bought HEAPS of magazines ... holidays, health, fashion, etc etc and we are going to start making our vision boards tomorrow .. Ill blog about this in my next post - It is important for us all to keep ourselves on our toes .. we need to continue push ourselves to achieve greater things in life because I can guarantee we wont get it by sitting on our butts and expecting someone else to do it for us ... Conceive, Believe, Create, Succeed ~ vision boards are a great way to get motivated.
I cannot wait! I am excited to see what will naturally fall into place on mine ... and then seeing how they differ from Julies - everyone has different goals,wants and needs in life so it is important not to compare but rather 'share' in the delights of your own ...
Brrrrrr its windy and cold but I am still going to make it to the gym ~ remember people that choice of mind is what stops us from achieving the great wonders that the universe has to offer us!
Much love x
I have come to take more note of how many of us (including myself) no longer fully appreciate the 'now' as much as we really should since technology has been taking over our lives!
Think back to the old days when there were no mobiles and internet still hadnt hit the big time market .. now imagine the times that visitors would come over, be it a family member, bestfriend, boyfriend etc ... really think back at those times and I dont know about you but I can assure you that I remember completely being wrapped up in the moment of having those people in company at the time .. nothing else mattered, nothing else distracted me .. it was all about the 'now'...
Take a look now at the persent time, Im sure you will notice that now when we are in the presence of company if our mobile phone rings we will instantly cut conversation and say hold on and get busy answering the call ... or we jump to reply to an sms ...that then leads into another 5.
Dont worry, I am just the same - however I have now noticed this lack of appreciation for the people we have in our lives in the moment of 'now' and moving forward I am going to make a concious effort that my phone or any other distractions that can actually wait do exactly that ....wait... whilst I have the company of loved ones and friends I am going to do my best to give them my full attention ~ afterall, they have made the effort to be with me face to face, the least I can do is repay that effort and time of theirs by focusing on them not my mobile!
Its funny, so many people find mobiles as a lifeline these days - I was one of them ... but not for any longer. I have actually started to use my mobile alot less over the past few weeks and especially when it comes to using it whilst Im with others and I have already noticed a HUGE difference! I appreciate and actually enjoy my 'now' time so much more!
I am just about to get ready for the gym .. I have a workout with Louise this morning which I am looking forward to.. then I have my First Aid training that will chew up most of my day .. Tonight I have Pers birthday, so I figure I will allow myself to indulge in a yummy slice of cake... I have been working out hard this week and have watched what I eat so indulgement it is!
Julie is down from Singapore and yesterday we went and bought HEAPS of magazines ... holidays, health, fashion, etc etc and we are going to start making our vision boards tomorrow .. Ill blog about this in my next post - It is important for us all to keep ourselves on our toes .. we need to continue push ourselves to achieve greater things in life because I can guarantee we wont get it by sitting on our butts and expecting someone else to do it for us ... Conceive, Believe, Create, Succeed ~ vision boards are a great way to get motivated.
I cannot wait! I am excited to see what will naturally fall into place on mine ... and then seeing how they differ from Julies - everyone has different goals,wants and needs in life so it is important not to compare but rather 'share' in the delights of your own ...
Brrrrrr its windy and cold but I am still going to make it to the gym ~ remember people that choice of mind is what stops us from achieving the great wonders that the universe has to offer us!
Much love x
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Release the past ....
Many of us use our painful pasts as a good excuse for accomplishing nothing. The pain can act as a dam that blocks the flow of your life or a painful burn that scars your existence.
You can use the pain and let it become the energy and passion that move you. The choice of how you use it is yours. Release the dam and use the energy of the released waters to propel you. Use the heat and light created by the flame to warm you and illuminate your way. Have the courage to break down the barriers and move forward.
It is easier to blame the past that to create your future. Where do you want to live; in the past or in the now, creating a better future?
Hate and fear destroy life and keep us holding on to pain. Instead use the pain in your life to create something meaningful.
You can use the pain and let it become the energy and passion that move you. The choice of how you use it is yours. Release the dam and use the energy of the released waters to propel you. Use the heat and light created by the flame to warm you and illuminate your way. Have the courage to break down the barriers and move forward.
It is easier to blame the past that to create your future. Where do you want to live; in the past or in the now, creating a better future?
Hate and fear destroy life and keep us holding on to pain. Instead use the pain in your life to create something meaningful.
Blame Game ....
Up I got at 5.00am this morning to get ready for my first morning shift .. wow what a difference I noticed in the morning crew of members working out!
As I was pulling up out the front of the gym I noticed 2 women standing out the front 15mins before open time waiting to get in and start their workouts for the day ... morning I yelled out as I opened the door ... after they introduced themselves off they went straight onto the circuit .. you ladies are nice and early I said .. Sali we are always here every morning - 6 days a week at this time .. Really? I replied .. what about when its raining down hard ... I chuckled .. That doesnt even keep us away they said. After looking up their records these ladies werent kidding .. They had worked out nearly 500 times in the past 2 years WOW what dedication!
Its weird how you can be thinking of things ..almost perhaps doubting yourself and then something will happen to reconfirm your feelings ... I was 100% right .. Power of Mind does exist .. and its all got to do with the choices we make.
In this morning alone I had met women who were either told by their partners that they are too fat and need to lose weight .. others too had life threatening diseases .. one lady even had Stage 4 cervical cancer ... another had high levels of depression as she had broken up with her partner after he had an affair ... (It is amazing what these women will share with you as you take their measurements) ...
The whole time these women shared their stories with me I couldnt help but stare back with ultimate admiration and respect. Not one of these women were playing the poor me victim card .. they had all different levels of hurt yet not one of them played the blame game ... not one of them was negative .. they were all positive and motivated women .. who obviously have come to realise through their lives that playing the blame game is only an excuse and a cowards way of not taking responsibility for their own lives....
Yes things happen that steer us onto different paths in life but that is what makes life so great .. through the experiences .. the good and the bad we can better ourselves by remaining at peace knowing that no matter what comes our way we have the ultimate power to learn and move on .. negativity is such evil .. and those that continue to fester in negativity might as well be satan themselves for they not only destroy their own lives they destroy the lives of those around them ... with each piece of negative energy that you put out into the universe you will literally get double the amount back!
Take a look around you at the lives of those who are positive ..peaceful and happy .. isnt it funny that no matter what they seem to have it together ...they seem to have things go there way .. they seem to have all the 'luck' in the world ... yet those who are negative just seem to slowly continue losing everything ..
Luck ... it isnt something that is given to you or that you are gifted with .. it is something we create for ourselves.
Today I am beaming with the fact I was surrounded by motivated, positive women ... I am also happy to have spoken to many of my friends .. .. who always manage to keep me smiling! I am super excited because tonight my twin is down from Singapore to spend the week with us .. Brad & I are taking her out for dinner ... along with another couple of our friends who I havent seen in what feels like forever.
Remember to make time for the people that matter .. make time and really enjoy the 'moment' as you never know how short lived it could be. Last but not least.. remember to take control of your life .. stop fooling yourself by playing the blame game .... take responsibility .... you owe it to yourself to live a positive life!
x
As I was pulling up out the front of the gym I noticed 2 women standing out the front 15mins before open time waiting to get in and start their workouts for the day ... morning I yelled out as I opened the door ... after they introduced themselves off they went straight onto the circuit .. you ladies are nice and early I said .. Sali we are always here every morning - 6 days a week at this time .. Really? I replied .. what about when its raining down hard ... I chuckled .. That doesnt even keep us away they said. After looking up their records these ladies werent kidding .. They had worked out nearly 500 times in the past 2 years WOW what dedication!
Its weird how you can be thinking of things ..almost perhaps doubting yourself and then something will happen to reconfirm your feelings ... I was 100% right .. Power of Mind does exist .. and its all got to do with the choices we make.
In this morning alone I had met women who were either told by their partners that they are too fat and need to lose weight .. others too had life threatening diseases .. one lady even had Stage 4 cervical cancer ... another had high levels of depression as she had broken up with her partner after he had an affair ... (It is amazing what these women will share with you as you take their measurements) ...
The whole time these women shared their stories with me I couldnt help but stare back with ultimate admiration and respect. Not one of these women were playing the poor me victim card .. they had all different levels of hurt yet not one of them played the blame game ... not one of them was negative .. they were all positive and motivated women .. who obviously have come to realise through their lives that playing the blame game is only an excuse and a cowards way of not taking responsibility for their own lives....
Yes things happen that steer us onto different paths in life but that is what makes life so great .. through the experiences .. the good and the bad we can better ourselves by remaining at peace knowing that no matter what comes our way we have the ultimate power to learn and move on .. negativity is such evil .. and those that continue to fester in negativity might as well be satan themselves for they not only destroy their own lives they destroy the lives of those around them ... with each piece of negative energy that you put out into the universe you will literally get double the amount back!
Take a look around you at the lives of those who are positive ..peaceful and happy .. isnt it funny that no matter what they seem to have it together ...they seem to have things go there way .. they seem to have all the 'luck' in the world ... yet those who are negative just seem to slowly continue losing everything ..
Luck ... it isnt something that is given to you or that you are gifted with .. it is something we create for ourselves.
Today I am beaming with the fact I was surrounded by motivated, positive women ... I am also happy to have spoken to many of my friends .. .. who always manage to keep me smiling! I am super excited because tonight my twin is down from Singapore to spend the week with us .. Brad & I are taking her out for dinner ... along with another couple of our friends who I havent seen in what feels like forever.
Remember to make time for the people that matter .. make time and really enjoy the 'moment' as you never know how short lived it could be. Last but not least.. remember to take control of your life .. stop fooling yourself by playing the blame game .... take responsibility .... you owe it to yourself to live a positive life!
x
ANGER
There are times when anger is appropriate. When you cannot release anger, it hurts you more than the person you are angry at. When you cannot let go of bitterness, resentment, hurt and aggravation over whatever has happened, then you allow it to continue to damage your life.
Your thoughts are what control your outcome. Read letters to the editors of daily papers, and you will learn what bothers everyone. Rarely do you see a letter expressing thanks or reflecting on a pleasant experience. By your anger you make clear who you are and what you believe in.
Almost invariably, peoples unhealthy anger is about principles and rules of behaviour that they are having trouble with. The best advice I can give is to stop writing angry letters about what a good person should do, and be one instead. Stop criticizing, and be the person you wish everyone else to be.
Right beliefs are one thing, but right action is everything.
Your thoughts are what control your outcome. Read letters to the editors of daily papers, and you will learn what bothers everyone. Rarely do you see a letter expressing thanks or reflecting on a pleasant experience. By your anger you make clear who you are and what you believe in.
Almost invariably, peoples unhealthy anger is about principles and rules of behaviour that they are having trouble with. The best advice I can give is to stop writing angry letters about what a good person should do, and be one instead. Stop criticizing, and be the person you wish everyone else to be.
Right beliefs are one thing, but right action is everything.
CHOICE IS POWER!
This morning I get up, head to Peter Mac and have my Oncology review for the 3 months of my soft trial ~ so far so good .. only a few hot flushes but nothing I cant handle. My cervical tests came back clear however yet again they need to further test my ovaries, which has me a little concerned as breast cancer and ovarian cancer can have a link. Not much I can do besides book myself in for further testing.
With that I decide to have lunch with Brad which was great, only problem was he ended up eating my yummy order of grilled chicken and broccoli with rice, while I got stuck with his 'boring' choice of soup ... how does that happen? After a good meal and much needed coffee I head into work for my shift.
I cannot tell you how pumped I feel everytime I enter this place. I will probably repeat myself over and over again but it is so true, when you surround yourself with likeminded people how uplifting it can be. Being in a environment where I see so many women of all shapes and sizes, ages and colour there doing the same thing ...getting fit and healthy is a god send!
I talk to these women throughout my shift ... motivating them to make positive changes in their life.. the way they think, feel, eat etc and it is AMAZING when I see them back time and time again working towards keeping focussed.
I even had 2 women today say to me that I was an inspiration ... that my positive attitude even though I am going through breast cancer makes them think twice when they feel too lazy to get to the gym, they even mentioned how their moods lift as soon as they start out on a circuit with me. You have no idea how this makes me feel - I cant tell you what wonders this job is doing for me .. I have noticed I am feeling so much more stress free ...
Stress Free ... well when I got home today I was confronted by a VERY stressful situation - one that I decided was TOO much for me to continue handling so my way of handling it was simple ... I weeded out the person who was creating so much drama and stress in my life.
At the end of the day I am a STRONG believer that mind over matter does exist... as does the law of attraction and for those that say yes it does for one purpose and no it doesnt for another are simply fooling themselves and are trying to make excuses up for their own weaknesses.
The beauty of having being diagnosed with cancer is that I have learnt first hand the power of inner strength and mindset. No we dont have the power to control other peoples behaviour, words, intentions etc but we DO have the POWER and ABILITY to CONTROL our own lives and mindset, and how we let situations effect us.
When people say to me I cant get over what this person said or what that person did .. or worse still if people are up and down and 1 second they are happy and forgiving and positive and the next they are angry and distant and negative I now choose not to waste my energy on these people.
We as people have CHOICE - we have POWER of CHOICE .. we can CHOOSE to be miserable, depressed and live topsy turvey drama filled lives or we can CHOOSE to focus on the POSITIVES that life gives us. Yes it is that simple. So when you choose the negative option it is usually because you have a need or want for a drama filled life .. YOU are in control of your own destiny only YOU can make that choice as to what type of life you will live but I assure you - choose one that is negative and you will notice that those around you, even loved ones will soon be tired of the drama filled bullshit and you will end up a very old and lonely soul ... choose to live a life of POSITIVITY and you will notice that not only will your world be surrounded by so many people who love being around your good energy but things in your life will fall into place.
I look at my situation .. I was 27 when I was diagnosed with Stage II breast cancer, now being so young and knowing my odds of survival I could have so easily have gone into a state of depression and played the 'poor me' card .. I could have easily have quit my job whilst I was going through treatment ... I could have easily slept in all day all night during my 7 months of chemo .. crying why me ... but it came down to me having a choice ... regardless of my situation of being faced with a deadly disease i had a choice on how I would allow it to effect my life. I chose to be positive.
I kept working through my chemo .. sure my hours were cut back as some days I literally couldnt get out of bed but most of the time I was at work .. trying to live normally ... yes i had it ringing in my head everday that I had cancer and that I could very well DIE from this but I CHOSE to remain positive .. I am not superhuman so there a times it got hard .. but the harder it got the more focussed I became on remaining positive.
After my double maestectomy I learnt that my surgeons had found 2 more tumours in my blood vessle .. and every day I now live with the unknown fear that it could have spread to my blood .. everyday I now live with the fear that I could die in the next 5 years .. that I may not get to see my son start school ... graduate ..get his first girlfriend or turn 21 ... everyday I fear that my Drs will tell me the cancer has come back .. which we know if that happens it is incurable .. now even though I live with these fears every second of every day I refuse to give up on being positive because that is the CHOICE I am able to make. That is the POWER that I have as a human being ... and people underestimate that power way too often!
Do I have less patience for people who dramatise situations that are not life or death matters - YES I do .. why .. because these people make me angry .. they have lives that are blessed with good family and friends... good jobs .. and most importantly their good health. These people have NO idea how lucky they are ... and it actually is insulting to those of us who are less fortunate...and not by choice!
So for those who care to talk to me about not being able to get over an arguement that had hurtful words or comments I say in return - I simply pity you for feeling the need to allow such way of words to consume your life and eat away at you to the point you feel the need to create such drama ... I cant help but cry as I right this as it makes me feel sick to the core of my stomach that people like this dont appreciate, respect or take time to be greatful for the beauty they have .. instead they focus on all the negative shit no matter how small it is.
Something I always say to myself is that if you ask the universe to make you more forgiving .. or stronger .. or whatever it is that you may wish you were .. the universe will never hand it out to you on a silver platter .. instead it will create situations in your life that give you the opportunity to become those things ...
As for me, I remain thankful that I am blessed with cancer ~ for it has made me realise the real power of choice ... choice of mindset .. choice in the way we allow ourselves to be effected my situations!
With that tonight have chosen to cleanse myself of these people .. and it is for good.
With that I decide to have lunch with Brad which was great, only problem was he ended up eating my yummy order of grilled chicken and broccoli with rice, while I got stuck with his 'boring' choice of soup ... how does that happen? After a good meal and much needed coffee I head into work for my shift.
I cannot tell you how pumped I feel everytime I enter this place. I will probably repeat myself over and over again but it is so true, when you surround yourself with likeminded people how uplifting it can be. Being in a environment where I see so many women of all shapes and sizes, ages and colour there doing the same thing ...getting fit and healthy is a god send!
I talk to these women throughout my shift ... motivating them to make positive changes in their life.. the way they think, feel, eat etc and it is AMAZING when I see them back time and time again working towards keeping focussed.
I even had 2 women today say to me that I was an inspiration ... that my positive attitude even though I am going through breast cancer makes them think twice when they feel too lazy to get to the gym, they even mentioned how their moods lift as soon as they start out on a circuit with me. You have no idea how this makes me feel - I cant tell you what wonders this job is doing for me .. I have noticed I am feeling so much more stress free ...
Stress Free ... well when I got home today I was confronted by a VERY stressful situation - one that I decided was TOO much for me to continue handling so my way of handling it was simple ... I weeded out the person who was creating so much drama and stress in my life.
At the end of the day I am a STRONG believer that mind over matter does exist... as does the law of attraction and for those that say yes it does for one purpose and no it doesnt for another are simply fooling themselves and are trying to make excuses up for their own weaknesses.
The beauty of having being diagnosed with cancer is that I have learnt first hand the power of inner strength and mindset. No we dont have the power to control other peoples behaviour, words, intentions etc but we DO have the POWER and ABILITY to CONTROL our own lives and mindset, and how we let situations effect us.
When people say to me I cant get over what this person said or what that person did .. or worse still if people are up and down and 1 second they are happy and forgiving and positive and the next they are angry and distant and negative I now choose not to waste my energy on these people.
We as people have CHOICE - we have POWER of CHOICE .. we can CHOOSE to be miserable, depressed and live topsy turvey drama filled lives or we can CHOOSE to focus on the POSITIVES that life gives us. Yes it is that simple. So when you choose the negative option it is usually because you have a need or want for a drama filled life .. YOU are in control of your own destiny only YOU can make that choice as to what type of life you will live but I assure you - choose one that is negative and you will notice that those around you, even loved ones will soon be tired of the drama filled bullshit and you will end up a very old and lonely soul ... choose to live a life of POSITIVITY and you will notice that not only will your world be surrounded by so many people who love being around your good energy but things in your life will fall into place.
I look at my situation .. I was 27 when I was diagnosed with Stage II breast cancer, now being so young and knowing my odds of survival I could have so easily have gone into a state of depression and played the 'poor me' card .. I could have easily have quit my job whilst I was going through treatment ... I could have easily slept in all day all night during my 7 months of chemo .. crying why me ... but it came down to me having a choice ... regardless of my situation of being faced with a deadly disease i had a choice on how I would allow it to effect my life. I chose to be positive.
I kept working through my chemo .. sure my hours were cut back as some days I literally couldnt get out of bed but most of the time I was at work .. trying to live normally ... yes i had it ringing in my head everday that I had cancer and that I could very well DIE from this but I CHOSE to remain positive .. I am not superhuman so there a times it got hard .. but the harder it got the more focussed I became on remaining positive.
After my double maestectomy I learnt that my surgeons had found 2 more tumours in my blood vessle .. and every day I now live with the unknown fear that it could have spread to my blood .. everyday I now live with the fear that I could die in the next 5 years .. that I may not get to see my son start school ... graduate ..get his first girlfriend or turn 21 ... everyday I fear that my Drs will tell me the cancer has come back .. which we know if that happens it is incurable .. now even though I live with these fears every second of every day I refuse to give up on being positive because that is the CHOICE I am able to make. That is the POWER that I have as a human being ... and people underestimate that power way too often!
Do I have less patience for people who dramatise situations that are not life or death matters - YES I do .. why .. because these people make me angry .. they have lives that are blessed with good family and friends... good jobs .. and most importantly their good health. These people have NO idea how lucky they are ... and it actually is insulting to those of us who are less fortunate...and not by choice!
So for those who care to talk to me about not being able to get over an arguement that had hurtful words or comments I say in return - I simply pity you for feeling the need to allow such way of words to consume your life and eat away at you to the point you feel the need to create such drama ... I cant help but cry as I right this as it makes me feel sick to the core of my stomach that people like this dont appreciate, respect or take time to be greatful for the beauty they have .. instead they focus on all the negative shit no matter how small it is.
Something I always say to myself is that if you ask the universe to make you more forgiving .. or stronger .. or whatever it is that you may wish you were .. the universe will never hand it out to you on a silver platter .. instead it will create situations in your life that give you the opportunity to become those things ...
As for me, I remain thankful that I am blessed with cancer ~ for it has made me realise the real power of choice ... choice of mindset .. choice in the way we allow ourselves to be effected my situations!
With that tonight have chosen to cleanse myself of these people .. and it is for good.
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