Up I got at 5.00am this morning to get ready for my first morning shift .. wow what a difference I noticed in the morning crew of members working out!
As I was pulling up out the front of the gym I noticed 2 women standing out the front 15mins before open time waiting to get in and start their workouts for the day ... morning I yelled out as I opened the door ... after they introduced themselves off they went straight onto the circuit .. you ladies are nice and early I said .. Sali we are always here every morning - 6 days a week at this time .. Really? I replied .. what about when its raining down hard ... I chuckled .. That doesnt even keep us away they said. After looking up their records these ladies werent kidding .. They had worked out nearly 500 times in the past 2 years WOW what dedication!
Its weird how you can be thinking of things ..almost perhaps doubting yourself and then something will happen to reconfirm your feelings ... I was 100% right .. Power of Mind does exist .. and its all got to do with the choices we make.
In this morning alone I had met women who were either told by their partners that they are too fat and need to lose weight .. others too had life threatening diseases .. one lady even had Stage 4 cervical cancer ... another had high levels of depression as she had broken up with her partner after he had an affair ... (It is amazing what these women will share with you as you take their measurements) ...
The whole time these women shared their stories with me I couldnt help but stare back with ultimate admiration and respect. Not one of these women were playing the poor me victim card .. they had all different levels of hurt yet not one of them played the blame game ... not one of them was negative .. they were all positive and motivated women .. who obviously have come to realise through their lives that playing the blame game is only an excuse and a cowards way of not taking responsibility for their own lives....
Yes things happen that steer us onto different paths in life but that is what makes life so great .. through the experiences .. the good and the bad we can better ourselves by remaining at peace knowing that no matter what comes our way we have the ultimate power to learn and move on .. negativity is such evil .. and those that continue to fester in negativity might as well be satan themselves for they not only destroy their own lives they destroy the lives of those around them ... with each piece of negative energy that you put out into the universe you will literally get double the amount back!
Take a look around you at the lives of those who are positive ..peaceful and happy .. isnt it funny that no matter what they seem to have it together ...they seem to have things go there way .. they seem to have all the 'luck' in the world ... yet those who are negative just seem to slowly continue losing everything ..
Luck ... it isnt something that is given to you or that you are gifted with .. it is something we create for ourselves.
Today I am beaming with the fact I was surrounded by motivated, positive women ... I am also happy to have spoken to many of my friends .. .. who always manage to keep me smiling! I am super excited because tonight my twin is down from Singapore to spend the week with us .. Brad & I are taking her out for dinner ... along with another couple of our friends who I havent seen in what feels like forever.
Remember to make time for the people that matter .. make time and really enjoy the 'moment' as you never know how short lived it could be. Last but not least.. remember to take control of your life .. stop fooling yourself by playing the blame game .... take responsibility .... you owe it to yourself to live a positive life!
x
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
ANGER
There are times when anger is appropriate. When you cannot release anger, it hurts you more than the person you are angry at. When you cannot let go of bitterness, resentment, hurt and aggravation over whatever has happened, then you allow it to continue to damage your life.
Your thoughts are what control your outcome. Read letters to the editors of daily papers, and you will learn what bothers everyone. Rarely do you see a letter expressing thanks or reflecting on a pleasant experience. By your anger you make clear who you are and what you believe in.
Almost invariably, peoples unhealthy anger is about principles and rules of behaviour that they are having trouble with. The best advice I can give is to stop writing angry letters about what a good person should do, and be one instead. Stop criticizing, and be the person you wish everyone else to be.
Right beliefs are one thing, but right action is everything.
Your thoughts are what control your outcome. Read letters to the editors of daily papers, and you will learn what bothers everyone. Rarely do you see a letter expressing thanks or reflecting on a pleasant experience. By your anger you make clear who you are and what you believe in.
Almost invariably, peoples unhealthy anger is about principles and rules of behaviour that they are having trouble with. The best advice I can give is to stop writing angry letters about what a good person should do, and be one instead. Stop criticizing, and be the person you wish everyone else to be.
Right beliefs are one thing, but right action is everything.
CHOICE IS POWER!
This morning I get up, head to Peter Mac and have my Oncology review for the 3 months of my soft trial ~ so far so good .. only a few hot flushes but nothing I cant handle. My cervical tests came back clear however yet again they need to further test my ovaries, which has me a little concerned as breast cancer and ovarian cancer can have a link. Not much I can do besides book myself in for further testing.
With that I decide to have lunch with Brad which was great, only problem was he ended up eating my yummy order of grilled chicken and broccoli with rice, while I got stuck with his 'boring' choice of soup ... how does that happen? After a good meal and much needed coffee I head into work for my shift.
I cannot tell you how pumped I feel everytime I enter this place. I will probably repeat myself over and over again but it is so true, when you surround yourself with likeminded people how uplifting it can be. Being in a environment where I see so many women of all shapes and sizes, ages and colour there doing the same thing ...getting fit and healthy is a god send!
I talk to these women throughout my shift ... motivating them to make positive changes in their life.. the way they think, feel, eat etc and it is AMAZING when I see them back time and time again working towards keeping focussed.
I even had 2 women today say to me that I was an inspiration ... that my positive attitude even though I am going through breast cancer makes them think twice when they feel too lazy to get to the gym, they even mentioned how their moods lift as soon as they start out on a circuit with me. You have no idea how this makes me feel - I cant tell you what wonders this job is doing for me .. I have noticed I am feeling so much more stress free ...
Stress Free ... well when I got home today I was confronted by a VERY stressful situation - one that I decided was TOO much for me to continue handling so my way of handling it was simple ... I weeded out the person who was creating so much drama and stress in my life.
At the end of the day I am a STRONG believer that mind over matter does exist... as does the law of attraction and for those that say yes it does for one purpose and no it doesnt for another are simply fooling themselves and are trying to make excuses up for their own weaknesses.
The beauty of having being diagnosed with cancer is that I have learnt first hand the power of inner strength and mindset. No we dont have the power to control other peoples behaviour, words, intentions etc but we DO have the POWER and ABILITY to CONTROL our own lives and mindset, and how we let situations effect us.
When people say to me I cant get over what this person said or what that person did .. or worse still if people are up and down and 1 second they are happy and forgiving and positive and the next they are angry and distant and negative I now choose not to waste my energy on these people.
We as people have CHOICE - we have POWER of CHOICE .. we can CHOOSE to be miserable, depressed and live topsy turvey drama filled lives or we can CHOOSE to focus on the POSITIVES that life gives us. Yes it is that simple. So when you choose the negative option it is usually because you have a need or want for a drama filled life .. YOU are in control of your own destiny only YOU can make that choice as to what type of life you will live but I assure you - choose one that is negative and you will notice that those around you, even loved ones will soon be tired of the drama filled bullshit and you will end up a very old and lonely soul ... choose to live a life of POSITIVITY and you will notice that not only will your world be surrounded by so many people who love being around your good energy but things in your life will fall into place.
I look at my situation .. I was 27 when I was diagnosed with Stage II breast cancer, now being so young and knowing my odds of survival I could have so easily have gone into a state of depression and played the 'poor me' card .. I could have easily have quit my job whilst I was going through treatment ... I could have easily slept in all day all night during my 7 months of chemo .. crying why me ... but it came down to me having a choice ... regardless of my situation of being faced with a deadly disease i had a choice on how I would allow it to effect my life. I chose to be positive.
I kept working through my chemo .. sure my hours were cut back as some days I literally couldnt get out of bed but most of the time I was at work .. trying to live normally ... yes i had it ringing in my head everday that I had cancer and that I could very well DIE from this but I CHOSE to remain positive .. I am not superhuman so there a times it got hard .. but the harder it got the more focussed I became on remaining positive.
After my double maestectomy I learnt that my surgeons had found 2 more tumours in my blood vessle .. and every day I now live with the unknown fear that it could have spread to my blood .. everyday I now live with the fear that I could die in the next 5 years .. that I may not get to see my son start school ... graduate ..get his first girlfriend or turn 21 ... everyday I fear that my Drs will tell me the cancer has come back .. which we know if that happens it is incurable .. now even though I live with these fears every second of every day I refuse to give up on being positive because that is the CHOICE I am able to make. That is the POWER that I have as a human being ... and people underestimate that power way too often!
Do I have less patience for people who dramatise situations that are not life or death matters - YES I do .. why .. because these people make me angry .. they have lives that are blessed with good family and friends... good jobs .. and most importantly their good health. These people have NO idea how lucky they are ... and it actually is insulting to those of us who are less fortunate...and not by choice!
So for those who care to talk to me about not being able to get over an arguement that had hurtful words or comments I say in return - I simply pity you for feeling the need to allow such way of words to consume your life and eat away at you to the point you feel the need to create such drama ... I cant help but cry as I right this as it makes me feel sick to the core of my stomach that people like this dont appreciate, respect or take time to be greatful for the beauty they have .. instead they focus on all the negative shit no matter how small it is.
Something I always say to myself is that if you ask the universe to make you more forgiving .. or stronger .. or whatever it is that you may wish you were .. the universe will never hand it out to you on a silver platter .. instead it will create situations in your life that give you the opportunity to become those things ...
As for me, I remain thankful that I am blessed with cancer ~ for it has made me realise the real power of choice ... choice of mindset .. choice in the way we allow ourselves to be effected my situations!
With that tonight have chosen to cleanse myself of these people .. and it is for good.
With that I decide to have lunch with Brad which was great, only problem was he ended up eating my yummy order of grilled chicken and broccoli with rice, while I got stuck with his 'boring' choice of soup ... how does that happen? After a good meal and much needed coffee I head into work for my shift.
I cannot tell you how pumped I feel everytime I enter this place. I will probably repeat myself over and over again but it is so true, when you surround yourself with likeminded people how uplifting it can be. Being in a environment where I see so many women of all shapes and sizes, ages and colour there doing the same thing ...getting fit and healthy is a god send!
I talk to these women throughout my shift ... motivating them to make positive changes in their life.. the way they think, feel, eat etc and it is AMAZING when I see them back time and time again working towards keeping focussed.
I even had 2 women today say to me that I was an inspiration ... that my positive attitude even though I am going through breast cancer makes them think twice when they feel too lazy to get to the gym, they even mentioned how their moods lift as soon as they start out on a circuit with me. You have no idea how this makes me feel - I cant tell you what wonders this job is doing for me .. I have noticed I am feeling so much more stress free ...
Stress Free ... well when I got home today I was confronted by a VERY stressful situation - one that I decided was TOO much for me to continue handling so my way of handling it was simple ... I weeded out the person who was creating so much drama and stress in my life.
At the end of the day I am a STRONG believer that mind over matter does exist... as does the law of attraction and for those that say yes it does for one purpose and no it doesnt for another are simply fooling themselves and are trying to make excuses up for their own weaknesses.
The beauty of having being diagnosed with cancer is that I have learnt first hand the power of inner strength and mindset. No we dont have the power to control other peoples behaviour, words, intentions etc but we DO have the POWER and ABILITY to CONTROL our own lives and mindset, and how we let situations effect us.
When people say to me I cant get over what this person said or what that person did .. or worse still if people are up and down and 1 second they are happy and forgiving and positive and the next they are angry and distant and negative I now choose not to waste my energy on these people.
We as people have CHOICE - we have POWER of CHOICE .. we can CHOOSE to be miserable, depressed and live topsy turvey drama filled lives or we can CHOOSE to focus on the POSITIVES that life gives us. Yes it is that simple. So when you choose the negative option it is usually because you have a need or want for a drama filled life .. YOU are in control of your own destiny only YOU can make that choice as to what type of life you will live but I assure you - choose one that is negative and you will notice that those around you, even loved ones will soon be tired of the drama filled bullshit and you will end up a very old and lonely soul ... choose to live a life of POSITIVITY and you will notice that not only will your world be surrounded by so many people who love being around your good energy but things in your life will fall into place.
I look at my situation .. I was 27 when I was diagnosed with Stage II breast cancer, now being so young and knowing my odds of survival I could have so easily have gone into a state of depression and played the 'poor me' card .. I could have easily have quit my job whilst I was going through treatment ... I could have easily slept in all day all night during my 7 months of chemo .. crying why me ... but it came down to me having a choice ... regardless of my situation of being faced with a deadly disease i had a choice on how I would allow it to effect my life. I chose to be positive.
I kept working through my chemo .. sure my hours were cut back as some days I literally couldnt get out of bed but most of the time I was at work .. trying to live normally ... yes i had it ringing in my head everday that I had cancer and that I could very well DIE from this but I CHOSE to remain positive .. I am not superhuman so there a times it got hard .. but the harder it got the more focussed I became on remaining positive.
After my double maestectomy I learnt that my surgeons had found 2 more tumours in my blood vessle .. and every day I now live with the unknown fear that it could have spread to my blood .. everyday I now live with the fear that I could die in the next 5 years .. that I may not get to see my son start school ... graduate ..get his first girlfriend or turn 21 ... everyday I fear that my Drs will tell me the cancer has come back .. which we know if that happens it is incurable .. now even though I live with these fears every second of every day I refuse to give up on being positive because that is the CHOICE I am able to make. That is the POWER that I have as a human being ... and people underestimate that power way too often!
Do I have less patience for people who dramatise situations that are not life or death matters - YES I do .. why .. because these people make me angry .. they have lives that are blessed with good family and friends... good jobs .. and most importantly their good health. These people have NO idea how lucky they are ... and it actually is insulting to those of us who are less fortunate...and not by choice!
So for those who care to talk to me about not being able to get over an arguement that had hurtful words or comments I say in return - I simply pity you for feeling the need to allow such way of words to consume your life and eat away at you to the point you feel the need to create such drama ... I cant help but cry as I right this as it makes me feel sick to the core of my stomach that people like this dont appreciate, respect or take time to be greatful for the beauty they have .. instead they focus on all the negative shit no matter how small it is.
Something I always say to myself is that if you ask the universe to make you more forgiving .. or stronger .. or whatever it is that you may wish you were .. the universe will never hand it out to you on a silver platter .. instead it will create situations in your life that give you the opportunity to become those things ...
As for me, I remain thankful that I am blessed with cancer ~ for it has made me realise the real power of choice ... choice of mindset .. choice in the way we allow ourselves to be effected my situations!
With that tonight have chosen to cleanse myself of these people .. and it is for good.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Member of the Month!
Oh what a feeling!! I am very excited to report that I got 'member of the month for July' with Pink Hope - www.pinkhope.org.au
I cannot tell you how exciting this is. I love that website - it is an AMAZING forum for women and or men who have been affected either directly or through a love one to get together electronically and discuss/give advice etc on our own experiences with either Breast Cancer or Ovarian Cancer.
It feels so good to actually help other women through the same journey - of course everyone is completely different but we all still have some common ground.
It is so liberating to hear of other womens triumphs through the disease. It just makes me wanna scream with joy from the top of my lungs!
I feel so happy today - work was GREAT! I love being surrounded by women who are doing what they can to improve their health. I love motivating them to get through their circuits I love motivating them and given them advice on better nutrition options. It is such a rewarding job!
Tonight I leave you on a very HIGH note - I'm off to spend a nice quiet evening watching a movie with Brad.
x
I cannot tell you how exciting this is. I love that website - it is an AMAZING forum for women and or men who have been affected either directly or through a love one to get together electronically and discuss/give advice etc on our own experiences with either Breast Cancer or Ovarian Cancer.
It feels so good to actually help other women through the same journey - of course everyone is completely different but we all still have some common ground.
It is so liberating to hear of other womens triumphs through the disease. It just makes me wanna scream with joy from the top of my lungs!
I feel so happy today - work was GREAT! I love being surrounded by women who are doing what they can to improve their health. I love motivating them to get through their circuits I love motivating them and given them advice on better nutrition options. It is such a rewarding job!
Tonight I leave you on a very HIGH note - I'm off to spend a nice quiet evening watching a movie with Brad.
x
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Make the effort!
What a great weekend I had with Louise! We started our Saturday morning with a double workout of strength/cardio - always a great way to start the day .. we were feeling fit healthy and pumped ... ofcourse nothing is better to then head down to the mall and give your partners credit card a good workout too lol ... Retail Therapy is such bliss!
Last night we decided to head to the cinemas to watch 'the proposal' ooooohhhh how I LOVED this movie! It was such a great light hearted romance comedy ~ yet it also had me thinking .. that buzz you get when you watch two people fall in love on screen .. thats the buzz that I want from so many things in my life ..that really warm fuzzy feeling of happiness, peace and content.
Its so easy to let every day take over and we can tend to lose focus on making the effort with family, friends and loved ones. I know I tend to do it - This movie was a good reliasation that I need to remain concious to not let my days get away from me, to always remain in control and ALWAYS make time with people that matter ... and of course less time on the crap that really doesnt.
My son is so adorable. He always reminds me of an old soul .... he is so caring. Even till today (4 months after my surgery) he will still say, Mama are your boobs ok? Is the sticky tape still holding them mama? Oh my heart melts every time he voices concern! Mama - did you have to go to the Doctors house today? It really does amaze me at how intelligent little people can be. My son is only 4 1/2 and even when he sits on my lap he is always cautious of not leaning back on my chest ..even if I say its ok Mama doesnt hurt anymore he will look at me and say ..just in case Mama I wont I will sit here (on the edge of my knee) ...
Its moments like the above that matter .. not things that we get carried away about like my partner forgetting to take the bins out and the rubbish collector has been and gone - yes ok its annoying but at the end of the day .. who cares .. who cares about things that just plain and simple arent important.
I think we all need to make the time in our lives to often reassess what we have .. what makes our lives rich and obviously not in the sense of $$ .. what we find ourselves wasting time and energy on that makes no difference in the end.
Classic example - I use to before always get in the shits when Brad wouldnt say put his dishes in the dishwasher .. then I would spend the next hour being grumpy and moody .. now I tend to 'remind' him that he needs to put his plate in the dishwasher but I no longer waste my hours harping on about it ... I would rather let him know and move on and enjoy my afternoon with him ... Its little tiny simple things like this that end up making a HUGE difference - not only in the way we spend our time but our stress levels!
So my focus for this coming week is to concetrate on my stress levels - weeding out anything in my life that hinders it and embraces that in which is calming!
On Wednesday I have my 3 month review from my oncologist for my 'SOFT TRIAL" treatment - so far I feel fantastic - side effects are few and far between - I just pray every night that it is infact working. I love and cherish my life so much more now then I ever have and all I want is for my treatment to be working!
Im off to do my groceries for the week - preperation is the key to ensure that all my meals are healthy - its too easy to eat crap if you havent got yourself organised!
x
Last night we decided to head to the cinemas to watch 'the proposal' ooooohhhh how I LOVED this movie! It was such a great light hearted romance comedy ~ yet it also had me thinking .. that buzz you get when you watch two people fall in love on screen .. thats the buzz that I want from so many things in my life ..that really warm fuzzy feeling of happiness, peace and content.
Its so easy to let every day take over and we can tend to lose focus on making the effort with family, friends and loved ones. I know I tend to do it - This movie was a good reliasation that I need to remain concious to not let my days get away from me, to always remain in control and ALWAYS make time with people that matter ... and of course less time on the crap that really doesnt.
My son is so adorable. He always reminds me of an old soul .... he is so caring. Even till today (4 months after my surgery) he will still say, Mama are your boobs ok? Is the sticky tape still holding them mama? Oh my heart melts every time he voices concern! Mama - did you have to go to the Doctors house today? It really does amaze me at how intelligent little people can be. My son is only 4 1/2 and even when he sits on my lap he is always cautious of not leaning back on my chest ..even if I say its ok Mama doesnt hurt anymore he will look at me and say ..just in case Mama I wont I will sit here (on the edge of my knee) ...
Its moments like the above that matter .. not things that we get carried away about like my partner forgetting to take the bins out and the rubbish collector has been and gone - yes ok its annoying but at the end of the day .. who cares .. who cares about things that just plain and simple arent important.
I think we all need to make the time in our lives to often reassess what we have .. what makes our lives rich and obviously not in the sense of $$ .. what we find ourselves wasting time and energy on that makes no difference in the end.
Classic example - I use to before always get in the shits when Brad wouldnt say put his dishes in the dishwasher .. then I would spend the next hour being grumpy and moody .. now I tend to 'remind' him that he needs to put his plate in the dishwasher but I no longer waste my hours harping on about it ... I would rather let him know and move on and enjoy my afternoon with him ... Its little tiny simple things like this that end up making a HUGE difference - not only in the way we spend our time but our stress levels!
So my focus for this coming week is to concetrate on my stress levels - weeding out anything in my life that hinders it and embraces that in which is calming!
On Wednesday I have my 3 month review from my oncologist for my 'SOFT TRIAL" treatment - so far I feel fantastic - side effects are few and far between - I just pray every night that it is infact working. I love and cherish my life so much more now then I ever have and all I want is for my treatment to be working!
Im off to do my groceries for the week - preperation is the key to ensure that all my meals are healthy - its too easy to eat crap if you havent got yourself organised!
x
Friday, July 3, 2009
No more DRAMA!
FUCK ME! I am so cranky tonight! Argghh I cant even begin to type the frustration I am feeling.
I HATE more than anything in this world when people create DRAMA out of nothing - worse still when people turn someones words into their own little dramatised fiasco that is completley and utterly off the topic or track of what the person was saying ...
Anyways the situation above was a case that happend earlier tonight and it just grinds away at me .. What is the point of having free speech if you have to CORRECT people because they 'missunderstood' what was being said - GRRR why cant people stop being so god damn self obsessed and realise that NOT everything that is said is about them!
Im not even going to waste my fingertips on the details of the situation but I am on here to vent as otherwise I would be lying in bed with an abosolute ball of stress in my belly that would probably eat right through my core by sunrise!
This journey is teaching me so many things .. even still till this day - it teaches me the importance of surrounding myself with likeminded people - why waste your time on people who literally suck the engery right from you!
Over the next week I am going to write a list of things that are important for me to have in my life ... everything from work ..friends ... love ... interests ..etc and for what doesnt stack up against my list well ... its time for me to find my inner strength and rid myself from that in which is sucking me dry!
Why is it that when something new in your life is going great other things turn to shit? Why cant there be a moment when just everything ... aboslutely everything is the way its meant to be? Or maybe thats just it .. maybe things are never ever meant to be perfect?
Tomorrow I recieve yet another monthly injection - Joy! However I am looking foward to hitting the gym twice tomorrow with my pal Louise .. ohh more than ever now I am looking forward to it, what a stress relief it will be!
I love spending time with Louise, she really truly gets me. It is funny, we had a big falling out 2 years ago but ever since then we have been inseperable and we now totally get eachother. Nothing is ever taken out of context. Were brutally honest with eachother which is healthy! Sure she shits me at times, Im sure I shit her at times but that is what makes us such good friends - we can let eachother know and there is no hard feelings - we deal with it, or give eachother time and we move on!
I seriously dont know how I would cope throughout my journey if I didnt have her. She has really helped me out when I have needed to vent but most importantly she has really made me feel normal. She doesnt treat me any different at any time, even if Im lying in hospital she wont treat me with the 'poor Sali' technique - she just keeps things normal and for that I love her to death! She knows if I need to talk about it I can bring it up, she doesnt hammer me with questions which I respect!
It is so important to find good friends - nobody is ever perfect but if you can find someone you can really lean on in the hard times, well then I can assure you they are the ones worth holding on to through thick or thin!
So now that I have finished my post on a good note I think Ill be feel good enough to go to bed stressfree .. Ill just think about what a fun girls day I will have tomorrow!
x
I HATE more than anything in this world when people create DRAMA out of nothing - worse still when people turn someones words into their own little dramatised fiasco that is completley and utterly off the topic or track of what the person was saying ...
Anyways the situation above was a case that happend earlier tonight and it just grinds away at me .. What is the point of having free speech if you have to CORRECT people because they 'missunderstood' what was being said - GRRR why cant people stop being so god damn self obsessed and realise that NOT everything that is said is about them!
Im not even going to waste my fingertips on the details of the situation but I am on here to vent as otherwise I would be lying in bed with an abosolute ball of stress in my belly that would probably eat right through my core by sunrise!
This journey is teaching me so many things .. even still till this day - it teaches me the importance of surrounding myself with likeminded people - why waste your time on people who literally suck the engery right from you!
Over the next week I am going to write a list of things that are important for me to have in my life ... everything from work ..friends ... love ... interests ..etc and for what doesnt stack up against my list well ... its time for me to find my inner strength and rid myself from that in which is sucking me dry!
Why is it that when something new in your life is going great other things turn to shit? Why cant there be a moment when just everything ... aboslutely everything is the way its meant to be? Or maybe thats just it .. maybe things are never ever meant to be perfect?
Tomorrow I recieve yet another monthly injection - Joy! However I am looking foward to hitting the gym twice tomorrow with my pal Louise .. ohh more than ever now I am looking forward to it, what a stress relief it will be!
I love spending time with Louise, she really truly gets me. It is funny, we had a big falling out 2 years ago but ever since then we have been inseperable and we now totally get eachother. Nothing is ever taken out of context. Were brutally honest with eachother which is healthy! Sure she shits me at times, Im sure I shit her at times but that is what makes us such good friends - we can let eachother know and there is no hard feelings - we deal with it, or give eachother time and we move on!
I seriously dont know how I would cope throughout my journey if I didnt have her. She has really helped me out when I have needed to vent but most importantly she has really made me feel normal. She doesnt treat me any different at any time, even if Im lying in hospital she wont treat me with the 'poor Sali' technique - she just keeps things normal and for that I love her to death! She knows if I need to talk about it I can bring it up, she doesnt hammer me with questions which I respect!
It is so important to find good friends - nobody is ever perfect but if you can find someone you can really lean on in the hard times, well then I can assure you they are the ones worth holding on to through thick or thin!
So now that I have finished my post on a good note I think Ill be feel good enough to go to bed stressfree .. Ill just think about what a fun girls day I will have tomorrow!
x
Thursday, July 2, 2009
A Moment
So Im due to head out the door soon to get a wriggle on at work ..and I mean a wriggle on! I love it - I love dancing all day long, motivating women as they do their circuit! Curves is great and i even enjoy doing the workouts myself - its quick, not easy let me assure you but it is a excellent workout that leaves you feeling great afterwards!
I have noticed this week that I have been running around like a headless chook ...from one Drs appointment to another .. then to work ..then rushing home to get the house cleaned and dinner on the table ...it never ends .. until that is the other morning when I jumped in my car and started reversing out the drive way .. I could hear my reverse beepers going off ..beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeppppp *BOOM* woopsy! I had just reversed into my partners Audi S4 .. now thankfully my partner is loving and he didnt actually have a hissy that I just smashed into the back of his prized possession ... instead he came out looked and me and said ... Sali please let this be a wake up call that you are running around life too fast these days .. Please start to take some time out for you .. come home and dont worry about cleaning up - just start taking things a little bit easier - get back to having some 'chill' time ...
This is when I realised I had been rushing through life so fast that I was forgetting to enjoy the beauty of reflection - so yes now needless to say if I get home and my day has been hectic .. well the washing can wait till the next day .. instead I make sure I take the time to lie down and just breathe .. thinking about what happended in the day and what lessons i may have learnt ...what I was greatful for (and being sure I made the time to put an entry in my gratitude book)
Its so easy for us all to get caught up in a rush and forget about the most important thing we have ... time for ourselves. I love sitting in absolute silence and just letting my mind tick over. I love taking the time to appreciate my day .. for all of us .. healthy or ill we never know when it will be our last!
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I have noticed this week that I have been running around like a headless chook ...from one Drs appointment to another .. then to work ..then rushing home to get the house cleaned and dinner on the table ...it never ends .. until that is the other morning when I jumped in my car and started reversing out the drive way .. I could hear my reverse beepers going off ..beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeppppp *BOOM* woopsy! I had just reversed into my partners Audi S4 .. now thankfully my partner is loving and he didnt actually have a hissy that I just smashed into the back of his prized possession ... instead he came out looked and me and said ... Sali please let this be a wake up call that you are running around life too fast these days .. Please start to take some time out for you .. come home and dont worry about cleaning up - just start taking things a little bit easier - get back to having some 'chill' time ...
This is when I realised I had been rushing through life so fast that I was forgetting to enjoy the beauty of reflection - so yes now needless to say if I get home and my day has been hectic .. well the washing can wait till the next day .. instead I make sure I take the time to lie down and just breathe .. thinking about what happended in the day and what lessons i may have learnt ...what I was greatful for (and being sure I made the time to put an entry in my gratitude book)
Its so easy for us all to get caught up in a rush and forget about the most important thing we have ... time for ourselves. I love sitting in absolute silence and just letting my mind tick over. I love taking the time to appreciate my day .. for all of us .. healthy or ill we never know when it will be our last!
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